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MSNBC has reported that Amazon.Com is selling a Kindle book named, "A pedophiles guide to love and pleasure" written by Phillip R. Grieves 2nd. and people are understandably furious. I have been reading all of the comments and even went to Amazon to see what all of the hype was about. I downloaded the free part of the book and was disgusted, the man says he is not advocating sex with children but wants to help remove the stigma of sex with children.
I was born into a seriously disturbed family, my mother was violent schizophrenic and my father was a sexual predator. Before the age of five I was being beaten by my mother and sexually sodomized by my father. It happened to all of my brothers and sisters, I was the youngest in my family.
My parents divorced when I was 6 years old and while I was not being abused by my father at this time I was being beaten by my mother. At the age of 8 years old my mother said we were going to the beach and I remember the entire day with perfect clarity. We went to a Howard Johnson's and had ice cream and then drove to an uninhabited beach in Florida. There was no one on the beach, the surf was very rough, the clouds hung low in the sky and we were moments from a storm. My mother parked the car and told me to go and play on the beach. The car was running and she filled it with car fumes and killed herself.
When I returned to the car about 30 minutes later the doors were locked and she was dead with her bible at her side opened to the passage of the 23rd Psalm. I waited on the beach in shock for what may have been hours before a woman asked me where my parents were.
After my mother's suicide I was placed in my father's custody and the sexual abuse began within 3 weeks of my mother's death. By the age of 12 I was molested by two other men one was a friend of my father and the other was a school janitor at my school. My father did not question Jerry Smith (The man molesting me) why a 50 year old man had such an interest in a 12 year old boy, he already knew the answer and did not care.
Now you know the story of my life up to the age of 12, really messed up. There was much more tragedy to follow in the ensuing years. I am antisocial, dislike visitors and spend most of my time alone. I have never had a girlfriend for more than a few weeks and have always ended the relationships when they became emotional or invaded my personal space.
Pedophiles destroy lives no matter how someone tries to put a sweet teddy bear spin on the subject. I am in my 40's now and will never have a wife, I will never have children and I will go to my grave alone. This is what the "Man - Boy love" did for my life. It destroyed me from the inside out.
I never became an abuser and do not harbor thoughts of being one. I don't want pedophiles to go to jail, I want them to be executed.
And to Amazon.Com:
While the first amendment protects your author and he has a right to say and write what he want's to say you have the right to deny him an audience. Shame on you for giving him a voice and shame on him for being a sick and perverted individual.
